Two Sides of Us

# Carry It Alone (Two Sides of Us)

## Intro

I’ve been holding this weight so long
It’s started to feel like bone
Trying to build a future out of nothing
While feeling like I’m doing it alone

I don’t say this to blame you
I say it because it’s true to me
Somewhere in all this silence
We stopped seeing the same thing

## Verse 1

I wake up early, head still heavy
Another day I’ve got to chase
Applications, calls, new directions
Trying to hold us in place

Every choice feels like a battle
Every step feels overdue
I’m doing everything I know how to do
To build something stable for you

But I come back through that doorway
And the air feels far away
Like we’re sharing the same house
But living in different shades

## Pre-Chorus

I own my mistakes
I wear them too
I don’t run from the damage
I know I helped create the truth

But I need to ask the question
That’s been sitting in my chest
Are we both still fighting for this
Or am I the only one left

## Chorus

I need my wife beside me
Not just near, but truly here
Not just sharing space and silence
But meeting me somewhere near

I don’t need you to fix me
I don’t need you to carry me through
But I need to know I’m not alone in this
That there’s still an “us” in you

Because I can’t tell anymore
What I’m fighting to defend
If I’m the only one still reaching
For something we could mend

## Verse 2

There’s a weight I carry daily
That never really leaves my hands
The future of this family
Built on shifting sand

And I’m trying every option
Every door I haven’t tried before
But it gets harder to keep going
When it feels like there’s no “we” anymore

I’m not asking for perfection
I’m not asking you to be strong all the time
I’m asking if you still want this life with me
Or if I’ve crossed your line

Because I feel like I’m rebuilding
While something’s drifting out the back
And I can’t tell if you’re still holding on
Or already letting go of that

## Pre-Chorus

Maybe I’m misreading silence
Maybe I’m lost in my head
But distance has a way of speaking
Even when nothing’s said

So I need to understand it
Not assume what’s true or not
Because I’m standing here exhausted
Trying to give everything I’ve got

## Chorus

I need my wife beside me
Not just near, but truly here
Not just sharing space and silence
But meeting me somewhere near

I don’t need you to fix me
I don’t need you to carry me through
But I need to know I’m not alone in this
That there’s still an “us” in you

Because I can’t tell anymore
What I’m fighting to defend
If I’m the only one still reaching
For something we could mend

## Bridge

I’ve made my share of damage
I won’t pretend that’s not true
But I can’t rebuild a future
If I’m the only one trying to move

So I’m asking for reflection
Not anger, not defense
Just honesty about where we are
And what this all makes sense

Do you still see a future here?
Do you still feel it in your chest?
Or have you already left this fight
While I’m still doing my best?

## Breakdown

I can carry pressure
I can carry pain
I can keep on pushing
Through loss and strain

But what breaks a man is not the struggle
It’s fighting without a hand to hold
Wondering if the person he’s fighting for
Has already gone cold

## Final Chorus

I need my wife beside me
Not perfect, just still here
Not distant, not uncertain
Not disappearing year by year

I’m not asking for promises
Just truth I can believe
Are we still building something together
Or is it just me trying to leave?

Because I’ll keep standing
I’ll keep trying
I’ll keep showing up each day

But I need to know I’m not alone in this
Before I lose my way

## Outro

If there’s still a “we” in this silence
Then let me feel it too
Because I can’t keep building futures
That I’m not building with you